2020/2021 Hiding (Trap)

 

Hiding (Trap)

(Artwork made in “Artist residency in motherhood”, from 1th October 2020 to 1th January 2021, text written in July, 2021.)

A série fotográfica "Hiding (trap)" foi realizada durante a residência artística "Artist in Residence in Motherhood", Organizado por Lenka Clayton, entre 01 de outubro de 2020 e 01 de janeiro de 2021. Ela reflete um momento tenso vivido na pandemia, onde estou presa em casa com dois filhos e um marido. Em quarentena, sem saber quando sair, apesar de isolados a casa recebe inúmeras invasões virtuais: escola, dança, teatro, trabalho, ginástica, reuniões... A vontade é de fugir e me esconder. Comecei então a encontrar lugares em casa para fazer minha "armadilha de esconder" aproveitando momentos em que as crianças faziam alguma atividade. Pra registrar meu corpo nestes locais utilizo fotografia, tentando ressaltar características distintas da maternagem vivida neste momento, uma maternagem que pode ser tanto um lugar para se esconder, quanto uma armadilha.

Since march 18th of 2020 I am hiding.

I´m at home, with my husband, two kids, and three cats.

Home is safe.

Home is a trap.

The whole world is inside my house. There is math-class in the kids bedroom, in the office my husband is teaching arts for high-school, in the living-room someone is doing dance class…

I am hiding in the kitchen. Am I hiding from what? Do you think it´s the virus? 

May be it´s not.

I have work to do, I´m an artist, a teacher and an undergraduate course coordinator.

Since march 18th of 2020 my kids have remote classes, schools are not allowed to open.

I live in Brazil, far from the amazon, but the new virus came fast, there are no one to stop it.

Government? Not here, not now. May be in 2022, until then we can hide.

There are few vaccines, people are tired, many of them quit the pandemic months ago.

It´s 2021, the world is coming out, kids are going to schools, families can meet again.

Not in Brazil, if you wanna be safe.

It has been more than a year, since march  18th of 2020.

I feel like a boat in the sea, there is no land in sight.

I can hide.

But I feel trapped.